I choke on my own bloodied saliva,
found blood on my carpet and the splintering wood underneath.
The rough and horrible thunderstorms are lurking against my fragile windows.
In this time of fright, Alcohol is my only need..
The candle lights fell down onto the ground;
Yes I feel their fire burning against the innocent flesh of my feet and still it is my fault,
that I feel this pain..
Yes, I felt the blisters itching painfully into my skin.
Yes, I have alcohol in my blood,
I have alcohol in my wounds;
I don’t even know what my good intentions thought of me and still now?
But what I know is that my reflections can’t react anymore..
I have alcohol in my wounds,
can I ever learn from my sins and their constant routine?
I have alcohol in my blood,
Lord I reach out for You,
I kneel for You..
What is this world with my selfish needs?
Please forgive my heart,
And give me the love whom my broken soul feeds….